The Backpacker

Angry? Of course I am angry. I am angry not at him, but at myself for reacting the way I did. I guess, under the circumstance it was justified. What would any of you feel if you were to know that the person you love is shaking your hands and wishing you luck and showing you how happy he/she is over your "supposed" relationship?

I dont know who is reading this, but if you are reading this, I defnitely want to tell you that it hurts a hell lot when you decide that since I have been miserable because I loved you. But I love being miserable, I love loving you and no J's of the world are changing that.

I dont blame you at all, no, why should I? I guess I have a right to feel the way I do...even if you made your stand clear. Allow me the misery as you say, because I chose that misery over the joy in a strangers arms...but am angry, yes, because you misread in one story what you could not read in a thousand truth I wrote about you...thats why am angry...and am sorry that I am, because I love you.